Regretful
frustrated
quixotic
Squeeful
stressed
tiredThere's one set of lyrics that is just...my life.
"There's people out there in the world like us, who have chemistry and the common sense to act on it. But, who needs simplicity in this candid game of hearts, we'll just keep on dancing 'till we tear ourselves apart."
The guy that I like, who I have liked for forever just never seems to get then hint that I like him. And we are friends. And we clearly have so much chemistry. But we just don't seem to have the common sense to act on it. If I were optimistic, I would say "Who needs simplicity?" And I would just keep dancing. Except, I don't want to continue getting torn apart.
So yeah, my life.
Also, I've definitely advanced in the boy department. "The Object"--as I will refer to him as here -- and I really seem to be going somewhere sometimes. And then not.
I don't know.
Honestly, guys. They drive me crazy. I don't know what to do with them.
"--men what is it about them? Can't live with 'em or without 'em!"
*musical nerd jokes, musical nerd jokes* *turns camera side to side*
Okay, so last week, I went on a three day trip with my school. It was supermegaawesome.
Yeah, okay, I just brought something up that I don't intend to talk about right now. I'm just too tired, and I really want to read a bit before I sleep.
But I will talk about the epic trip later. Consider it a cliff-hanger.
Also, I still haven't thought of a solid NaNoWriMo idea. But I will.
Goodnight! DFTBA
OH OH. p.s. The GREATEST thing happened last Tuesday! I was at school and I overheard the words "nerdfighter notes." Immediately, my head spun around until I found the source. A pretty Asian girl in grade 9, and a sweet guy in grade 9. As I approached, I heard the words, "I can't believe you haven't read harry potter."
Enter, me.
"WHAT?! You haven't read Harry Potter?!"
Boy (Patrick): Haha, no.
Girl (Annie): I KNOW, RIGHT?
And somehow from this, we started talking about nerdfighters. and harry potter. and the Parselmouths. and anime. and conventions.
and ZOMG they are my new best friends. It's fine and dandy when you MAKE your friend into a nerdfighter, but when you MEET someone who is as obsessed with Harry Potter and youtube as you and you completely start squee-ing and talking about wizard rock, then you know life is great.
These guys are in my school. And I never knew.
I'm so excited!!!!!!
OKay, i g2g, friend drama. love you!
accomplishedMIKA VIDEO EDITING LOG:
Saturday, September 19, 2009:
The video has to be completely edited, processed, and uploaded tomorrow. I’m going to be working on it all night until it is perfect. The following is a log I’m keeping as I struggle through post-production. The video must be complete and uploaded by 7pm tomorrow:
11:00 pm: continuing the editing process. I’ve got to put together about one minute of footage.
11:30 pm: . My energy is starting to go. Would really like to be watching Doctor Who ‘round about now.
12:08am: Dammit, I’m out of purple nail poli—erm, hello there. What? I should get back to work? I am! Yeah. No, no. I’ve been working! What’s that? Painting my—no,no. Editing only. Yes, sir. Yes.
12:43am: Surprisingly, I’m still awake and working. Only problem is, I think I’ve just about run out of clips. Uh oh.
12:47 am: program crashed for the third time. Painting nails while computer fixes itself.
12:58 am: thinking about how bad “All About Steve” was. Ughhhh it was hilariously horrid.
1:06 am: Given up for the night. With 36 seconds left, I think I can complete it tomorrow.
Gah.
10:49 am: just woke up, ‘bout to start editing.
11:21 am: so near the end, I can almost taste it. Must…finish…video…
11:42 am: program crashed for the fifth time.
12:13 pm: I haven’t even had breakfast yet.
1:09 pm: I may ACTUALLY be done. I’m too scared to finish it though…what if something isn’t perfect?
2:58 pm: I am about to implode. Two hours later and IT IS STILL NOT DONE. Sooo...many...TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES. GAAHH.
3:03 pm: 93hewtsfdicxfsoknsla
3:24 pm: much tears and shouting later: nothing’s been solved.
3:37 pm: (the following are extracts from my post on Sophie's facebook wall) Sophie, i'm sorry....I have spent the last 2 and half hours trying to get the freaking movie published, but WINDOWS MOVIE MAKER IS A PIECE OF CRAP AND IT DESERVES TO DIE A MILLION DEATHS.
...
no, seriously, i am so freaking disappointed in LIFE right now... And now I've killed myself editing this monster and I was FINALLY satisfied, I was prepared to be proud of myself, but apparently that's not going to happen.
I'm sorry. We wouldn't have won anyways. FML.
(you can see how I can be quite melodramatic at times)
5:16 pm: (a later message to Sophie): Wait, I may still have faith in humanity! 5 hours later and my mother, the miracle worker, has managed to make it work! ...
And thus it is. Here is the video I have been stressing over, that we spent weeks working on:
I've gotta say, I'm pretty proud.
In other news, Maddy and Christy are both going to do NaNoWriMo, and I'm starting to consider it myself. Last year, I only heard about it on November 2, and I tried to do it, but I hadn't had any time to prepare and it was just a big fat fail.
My problem is keeping motivated. I don't know if I can actually do it. I have to think of a good plot and then I have to actually be able to keep it going.
Hmm.
Also, October seems like its going to be a great month for me. Here are my plans:
October 1st, 2nd: I get to be a kind of councelor for the grade 7s on their leadership trip to a camp! I'm going with my best friends, and it's gonna be awesome. :)
October 3rd: I have tickets to see the Dalai Lama talk at the Bell Centre! So excited.
October 13th: Mika concert!!!
October 16th: (hopefully) going to Finland!!!!! Squeee!
How great does that sound? Not to mention Halloween... :)
My dad is from Finland and I used to visit every summer and it was practically a second home, but I havent gone in 4 years and I reallly miss it. Luckily my dad is going to Spain on a business trip and he's going to be visiting his family in Finland and we thought that maybe I could miss school and fly out and meet him for a few days! I really hope I can :)
Okay, sorry for this overly long, probably dreary blog.
DFTBA,
alex
okayAfter a few moments, the director said, "Did you think it was a bit...high? Chris," he turned to the musical director, "do you wanna lower it a few tones, and maybe play the melody along with her? Alex, just give it another go, okay?"
I commenced again, my voice wrought with embarrassment. The second time through was slightly better, though not by much. "Good," the director nodded.
As I walked quickly out of the room, the tears exploded. I hate being embarrassed. More than anything. It was awful. And not just that, now I'm probably not going to get a decent part in the musical, even if I do get in.
Anyways, that was just the beginning to the horrors that day. I.e., I had to go to "rehearsal" for the play that I didn't technically get into, and since I was already on edge due to my fail audition, I wound up crying to that director in his office.
Okay, don't get me wrong, I'm not a cry baby who can't deal with her situations. Tears just happen to come, not only when I am sad, but when I am frustrated, hurt, embarrassed, and worst of all, angry.
So, you know, it adds up.
ANYWAYS. On to more important things, that matter more. (redundant?)
Recently, Kristina (italktosnakes) said this on her blog, "I also appreciate letting my inner child out and reliving all of my favorite stories with my best friend in a foreign country."
This just sounded so marvelous to me, that it is now a new goal in my life: to be in a foreign country with my childhood best friend, and be children again.
I'm excited. :)
In other news, I finally may have thought of an idea for story. Which is good because I need to write a "significant piece of creative writing" for English class (I have until February though.) My idea is going to be partially based on the morals from Paper Towns (complexity, many layered people) what I think Liar is about (I never read it, but a girl trying to find her identity), one of John Green's videos, and hopefully original ideas from my mind.
I'm excited. :)
Anyways, my computer is threatening to die on me, so I guess I better wrap this up.
Life is okay. At the moment, I am feeling...7on the happiness scale. Basically, no reason to be sad, but no reason to be happy. I'm content, I guess.
Also, I finnaaalllyy started a dance class. All last year I tried to find one, but I could never manage to find an english speaking dance class at my level. I adore contemporary, but due to my schedule and stuffs, I'm signed up for a kind of hip hop jazz class. Our number is going to be about vampires.
I'm excited. :)
According to this post, I'm quite an excited child.
Okay, that is all. I will try to blog more. It's so hard to start, but once I do, I talk for hours. xD
Love y'all. :)
DFTBA
Video of the day:
I love this version :D Darren is soooo beautiful and talented and fuunny. And the rest are all amazingly adorable and hilarious and awesome.
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